Have you ever think that your friends don't give a shit about you?

girl3boy ppl tend do that .avoiding u when u dont meet em after some time.but those ppl r not friends.real friends r few and good.the very very special ones.so dont get frustrated by those ''friends''of urs just dont worry ok?its pointless.and u said ur ugly,crasy,randiom person and a bucnh of other stuff...SO WHAT? u think thats bad.no its not.thats actually u.and u should feekl good about u.dont let others make u that ur not worthy.listen..if u dont have freinds..evne if u dont have family(not u personaly)u have the very 1 person that will always stand by u.its ur own self.yup..u have to be very selfish sometimes.but thats not so bad.try to see a good positive thing in evry aspect.ppl generaly dont give a shit about others.so whats the point of beeing sad cause some dont want u? their loss...not urs.even though u dont like it beeing lonely..judgin from what u said..its just a stage...a level of matureness.eventually ull see that we dont rly need friends.we need only our selves.but friends can offer u good times/days in ur life that ull remember em 4ever.maybe thats why u want freinds.well...human pshyckology says that humans NEED to be in a pack.like many other animals..and having a leader.why?case when ur surrounded by many others ull get noticed about an incoming danger that u wouldnt detect if u were all alone.we also need a leader..president,governor/teacher etc etc.we r 100% and we act 100%like animals.why?cause thats the way we r.u know why ppl dont wanna go in jail?cause they dont wanna be alone.they feel no free.part of human brain that detects pain is also responsible for giving u the pshickologicaly pain of beeing alone with no friends.its like ur brain says ''listen paul..u better get some friends cauee im sad now''ive spend a vast amount of time with no friends when i was 8-11 years old but i got some freinds since then.the first friends of me r my very best loved ones.case ive been trhough many dificulties and they were on my side.and i was on theirs when they needed me.listen....good friends r counted to the numbers of finger of 1 hand.those r considered as true friends.i personaly have placed em in categories.u know...the real freinds. close friends..friends 4 fun friends...and the list goes on.many also have done that to me what u descreibed earlier..but i also did that to them.i guess at first u hang out with some1 and then just like that ur bored to be with em.cause u know they dont give u something or u dont give em something also.its on ur mood.how many ppl have real freinds?ill tell u...very very very few.why?casue many r around persons that they admire em..terying to be like them..others make a clik u know..like a team with same interewst and beeing..some BITCHES(girls on school..u know)ppl get friendships cause they want to have a personal gain from that.w/e is that.but those r not what i call real friends.real friends dont look up to personal gainins.u know what i mean?no? ok i wont exaplin my self.cause...*yawn* i have a head ache and im sleepy now.w8ing my food to be done so i can rest a bit.what i was saying?oh yeah(lol i talk with no connection at all but i dont give a mind crap about that)try to mature from that experience...beeing all alone.and how ppl act and react.and dont wry eventually ull have friends.no matter how much u may think that u suck.believe in urself and others will beleive in u.yeah i know..u may thnk now what im saying is not practical and that u try to get freinds but they dont want u.listen..those r immature pricks.as i said before its better beeing alone rather modifiing urself to get into a team and have lame ass friends.look on them...do they wry so much about their looks?about their grades?then later...when ull grow up and if he/shes is ur friend then theyll dump u for sure as u described.cause theyll have to go with their bf/gf making up exusions and avoiding u.or maybe ull also acty like that.ppl pass by.sometimes friends to others r like passing bus..they have freinds on ur elementary school then others on highschool college and so on and on.btw..why imw riting all this shit?idont even know.no1 will efver read em and to be honest i dont know what im saying im exhausted.ok they foreget u? THEN TALK TO EM WITH ATTITUDE.''LISTEN JERK WHATS UR PROBLEM?I THOUGHT WE WERE FRINEDS AND SHIT WHY NOW U ACT LIKE THAT''? ''hunt'' ur freinds if u want.but u know...if ur cool9i mean calm and easy going)then let em go (to hell maybe?) and as i said before ull get friends.i can be ur friend if u want.i dont care having an online friend..but i have to warn u..im kinda weird..acting random.u cant have a conclusion about me cause one day u may think im sweet and nice and cool and next day ull be thining ''god he is so stupid.and annoying.i hate him i wanna kill him''if ur rly desperate then ill lean my hand to u and be ur..virtual friend(lol like virtua fighter or virtua striker....sigh..sega....... genesis does..what nintendont)damn im hypnotised by heinekene or was it corona with lime? *burp* i took nude pics of me.idk why.but im chekcing my phone now and i took new pics.ill send em to my college teacher(and ill erase my face)via mail.shes so...u know..a ..''so right''woman...full of types that shes so horny.and she hides it.i bet she watches porn and that she has dildos.damn ill write her name on my cock and take a pic and ill send it to her. lol.i even have he rnumbder...she gave it to me cause of essay but i didnt need that.u think shes flirting with me?who cares.and why the dfuckin im asking u those lame questions random stuf? im tottaly a rag now.dont know if im dreaming or if im awake.someitmes i wish i was spiderman.just to be able to have those nice rides on the city..but we dont have skycscrapers here..so even if i was spiderman id end up diving in the sea or something.what if i was batman?havig all those gadgetzs and batmobile?well ppl on street would say ''wtf is that?a car?''and i couldnt park it.what if i waqs trying to fly with bat cape screaming to ppl ''get lost motherfuckers im batman yu huuuu''nah...bat cape cannot make me fly.i ewish i was living in my own world with my own fucking rules and my own ppl and creations in it.id make a planet full of spidergirls harems(yummy)and batgirls.damn i got a boner again.wtf is wrong with me and getting horny in a split of a sec.?i have a beard now.u know that?its looks great on me.bruce wayne had also a beard.but i dont have alfred.well thats not bad..cause lafred is old..and i bet he shits up himself and batman cleans up his mess.eww groos.he wear diapers.fuck it..id hire alfred..and a woman names as derfla.and id be batman or namtab.depending on my mood.well im sure now ure bored(if u read my lame liong comment)and u think im weird.but u know what?I DONT MIND THAT.I DONT CARE!cause thats who i am.thats what im trying to tell u.!!dont feel sad abotu urself cause freinds dont care about u.ull find a person just like u (or not like u)i think im having a stroke or something case out of the blue im heqring tetris theme in my ears.tetris is calling...let it.damn i read my comment and if i didnt know i wrote that id think the person who wrote is crasy.am or am i not?to be or not to be?..thats the big question

pffft no because all my friends are real friends, I don't just make friends with anyone I meet, I don't have massive amounts of friends but the friends I DO have are all close, close friends. We all care about each other very much and I do not think for one second that they don't give a shit about me.

all the time i dont think i have any rl frienz thy dont treat me like equally even my bestie acts like a bitch to me sumtimes i still love her though

Dont say that everyone of us have something wrong there is no one perfect . I'm sure you'll find some good faithful friends someday you just have to have hope . :D I want to be friends with you ! If you want you can have my e-mail , I can give it to you

Yeaah and I have lost a lot of friends.I get new friends then when you don't see them for a while they start to avoid in you. Well I do understand why they start to avoid in me, REASONS I am ugly, random person, crazy, I can't smile, stupid, annoying, to much otaku fan so basically a weirdo and would want to be friend with someone who is like.